Timing is everything...

Often in life timing is everything....and my belief is that everything happens for a reason. That being said, I do have great difficulty in finding good reasoning and fairness in certain situations. Couples experiencing infertility is one of those situations. In an ideal world, any couple would be able to conceive and carry the child they so wish for but unfortunately for many that is not the reality.

For a while this summer I was corresponding with A&S and discussing a potential surrogate arrangement with them. At that time they decided to move forward with another surrogate who seemed to fit their time line better than me. At the time, it seemed a little disappointing but I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.... L&J came into my life shortly thereafter.

Since the middle of August, I have been fortunate to get to know about L&J, their life and their children and to share my life with them. We have been sharing lots of thoughts back and forth and have been exploring a potential journey together. I feel great about moving forward with L&J and we are all excited about what the future holds.

Last weekend A &S contacted me again as their chosen carrier was not approved by their clinic and they wanted to know if I had matched for a journey. Reading their note stirred many thoughts in me ... I had great conversations with them earlier on and I think we could have had a good match. I truly felt for A&S' story and part of me wanted to help them make their dream come true but another part of me also knew that the timing for pursuing a journey with them had passed.

I feel a great connection with L. Finding the right match and having a strong personal connection is just really important to me. I feel that L and I have many similarities in our lives that can provide a wonderful basis for a friendship outside the boundaries of a surrogacy journey.

I feel so fortunate to have a second chance at being part of someone else's life in this special way that surrogacy provides for. At the same time I find it heart wrenching that many women are unable to conceive and carry the children they so wish for on their own. I wish for A&S that they will find the perfect surrogate to carry a baby for them - maybe I could have been that person but I truly feel that L&J came into my life for a reason and I hope that I will be able to carry a beautiful sweet little babe to hopefully join their family very soon.

We are all getting very excited about moving forward. Correspondence is ongoing with L&S' attorney and hopefully we will have a preliminary contract to review soon. Rio and I went to have our labs testing done this past week and today I went to get my records released and get my OB to sign off on that I am healthy and capable of carrying another pregnancy. Next week I will be go to ORM for a preliminary testing requirements there including a sonohysterogram to ensure that my uterus is fit for another IVF pregnancy.

Busy busy times .... but ever so exciting!