Happy Birthday to you my sweetest little surro girl...

Dear V,

The happiest of birthday wishes to you. I wish for you a bright future full of adventure and wonderful experiences .... conquer the world girl!

You have impacted my life in so many ways. I feel so fortunate to have been able to carry you and care for you inside my womb...you were such a comfort and joy to me in utero... a special little blessing. Watching you grow over the last year has been so much fun - you are such a sweetheart.

Today I reflect back on 2 1/2 years of knowing your mom and dad and what a fantastic journey it as been to watch them grow into parents of some of the cutest babes ever! M&M you are rooted deep in my heart and I feel so fortunate to know you. Thank you for allowing me to be a continued part of your lives .... it means so much to me.

Love always..

Party time...

A whole year has gone by...and sweet baby V is no longer a baby!!! In just a few days it will be her 1st birthday and she will officially be a toddler.

Olivia and I went to the twiblings birthday party yesterday - what a wonderful day! The babes are just getting so big and crawling all over, standing, and just about to walk all by them selves.

Being invited to the birthday party was so special to me. The party was filled with wonderful people all in one way or another connected to the babies. M gave a beautiful toast that was really touching. If feel so lucky to be allowed to peek into M&M's life and watch them embrace parenthood. Each time I see them or get emails and pictures is like being given a gift... being allowed to follow little V and K's growth is so fantastic and reaffirms my choice for being a surrogate.

Timing is everything...

Often in life timing is everything....and my belief is that everything happens for a reason. That being said, I do have great difficulty in finding good reasoning and fairness in certain situations. Couples experiencing infertility is one of those situations. In an ideal world, any couple would be able to conceive and carry the child they so wish for but unfortunately for many that is not the reality.

For a while this summer I was corresponding with A&S and discussing a potential surrogate arrangement with them. At that time they decided to move forward with another surrogate who seemed to fit their time line better than me. At the time, it seemed a little disappointing but I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.... L&J came into my life shortly thereafter.

Since the middle of August, I have been fortunate to get to know about L&J, their life and their children and to share my life with them. We have been sharing lots of thoughts back and forth and have been exploring a potential journey together. I feel great about moving forward with L&J and we are all excited about what the future holds.

Last weekend A &S contacted me again as their chosen carrier was not approved by their clinic and they wanted to know if I had matched for a journey. Reading their note stirred many thoughts in me ... I had great conversations with them earlier on and I think we could have had a good match. I truly felt for A&S' story and part of me wanted to help them make their dream come true but another part of me also knew that the timing for pursuing a journey with them had passed.

I feel a great connection with L. Finding the right match and having a strong personal connection is just really important to me. I feel that L and I have many similarities in our lives that can provide a wonderful basis for a friendship outside the boundaries of a surrogacy journey.

I feel so fortunate to have a second chance at being part of someone else's life in this special way that surrogacy provides for. At the same time I find it heart wrenching that many women are unable to conceive and carry the children they so wish for on their own. I wish for A&S that they will find the perfect surrogate to carry a baby for them - maybe I could have been that person but I truly feel that L&J came into my life for a reason and I hope that I will be able to carry a beautiful sweet little babe to hopefully join their family very soon.

We are all getting very excited about moving forward. Correspondence is ongoing with L&S' attorney and hopefully we will have a preliminary contract to review soon. Rio and I went to have our labs testing done this past week and today I went to get my records released and get my OB to sign off on that I am healthy and capable of carrying another pregnancy. Next week I will be go to ORM for a preliminary testing requirements there including a sonohysterogram to ensure that my uterus is fit for another IVF pregnancy.

Busy busy times .... but ever so exciting!

Wow ... I am matched for a second journey...

I am matched with L&J and we are totally excited about the prospect of having a little something snuggled up in time for Christmas! The thought of getting to be pregnant again soon is very thrilling and being able to give the gift of life to another family is an incredible feeling.

L&J already have three beautiful children via surrogacy and they are looking to complete their family...I feel so excited about the possibility of doing just that with them. We are moving forward to getting contracts done and I will begin to do some of the preliminary clinic requirements this month.

Life is a miracle ~ I pray that our journey will be filled with wonderful moments and be the beginning of a beautiful friendship.